Inside (feat. Stoomie)

from by Rawbeartoe & Variex

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    Rawbeartoe & Variex "Always Something" CD in digipak with 12-page lyric booklet.

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skating over spilled milk is becoming natural
composure is collateral when balancing on stilts
take the bitter pill, I know the feeling is impractical
to climb out of a massive hole without trying to build
I'm still caught up in the thrill of passing go
over cracks in the road to the other side of the hill
state of mind evolving from a wide eyed antelope
into a wild animal, braced for the kill
for every dead end that had us scratching our heads
and turning to the sky for answers, the only way is up
still chasing the sun before these days fade to dust
until we save the world we better learn how to save us
well it is what it is and this perspective here is new to me
moving past what I'm usually dwelling on under scrutiny
to close in on the moment and step to the edge
of a comfort zone that consistently left us for dead

I’m feeding off of the way you
seem to live more for today, you
all from inside, all from inside
I’m not yours to fix but you offer to try
and you know I got something to prove to
the person you’re no longer used to
all from inside, all from inside

for every sleeve that's left stained red from wearing out my welcome
and my ventricles I'm sorry, there's an open shoulder waiting for you
so many nights I've spent with premature regrets
while resting on my laurels quarreling with the less than permanent anxiousness
It makes no sense how every penny and waking moment
is spent hell bent on traveling inches in the long haul
I can't just focus on the guilt trip, too short of a distance
each path will end in the same place, but at least it's still consistent
one step forward and three steps back
I got a knack for revealing my weakness, it seems that this
progress trap is a one way track
I cannot lapse into negative defective sequences
no more chances as time slips past
the only catch is a definite rebound to seek tension
life straight packed full of lies stay strapped
why do I have to be constantly rebuilding defenses

it's been a long time coming, I'm tired of running
in circles inside a cell, it's all so mind numbing
but I've got my health and I can breathe so it's all right
even if I don't sleep through the night and can't remember dreams well
I've made some choices that I wish I would have avoided
but these days I would rather build a foundation than destroy it
we're fortunate to have a roof that when it rains
we can choose to go outside or remain, and that's the point

I've tried so hard to make it work, but there's a part of me
that wants the worst, arteries have spilt upon my shirt
you left me bleeding from reasoning with my demons
serenity's the blade we're leaning on, it's mutual, the pain is somewhat beautiful
I flew the coop to be a builder of my own nest prematurely
surely not recommending the lack of sleep
to say the least I've finally reached a point where I can be the person
that my kids need and put that part of my mind at ease


from Always Something, released July 27, 2016



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